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it's like i never tried an entry using english so i think i should give it a shot considering that i been up to english series drama lately.

out of sudden im attracted by this piece of drama . i was not giving great expectation over it but it end up top of my not-to-forgot list, at least as for this moment. it's about an extraordinary guy connected to all those surrounding him. what touched me isnt solely him but in fact those around him. it was the whole family thing tht trigger the click deep beneath my heart.when all this parent-children, husband-wife, brother-sister interact, it make me all out bursting.

while im ponding my eye, i began to start recall since when i becoming so sentimental.playing back each n ever cry from latest till fore, i came into these most possible who, what, when, where & why. he/she is a she and i never realise she still hold up such heavy portion toward my mind after all these while. without this incident or self-discovery, guess i wouldn't admit it after all. yet again, it's doesn't mean i not yet been getting over with her. it's cool tht people do live on but wat's left behind and worthwhile stay in our brain keep in it.

guess,a thanks you can wrap up the entry for me. also, i feel i owe u this thanks ever since.

真真假假

真的有想过陪爸妈去妹妹的毕业典礼，但
真的不愿意几小时单独的陪在父母身边
真的想过出席妹妹的毕业典礼，但
真的前晚突然发烧伤风，现在还不知道是不是中标

感情洁癖强迫症

近来写的东西越来越没有味道，这是为什么应该你知我知，直接跳过
之前参加了个朋友的婚礼，他的人缘很奇妙，不能说好却不会坏，所以酒席开了有近30座
但其实知心交心的朋友没几个，帮他出席接新娘的是一班兄弟，苦的丑的都帮他顶了
宴会时司仪喊兄弟上台时却是另一班，正主们若无所谓地在下面吃着笑着
大家都心照不宣，自己的朋友是什么个性大家都懂，这就是默契

接下来还有2对准新人也要摆酒了，一班28岁+一个26岁的我，转眼间都结的8899了，只剩我还有另一个定不下来的坏男人。听他们零零落落的讨论安排结婚的事宜，拍婚纱照啦，传统仪式啦，摆酒啦，度蜜月啦
不期然地自己也开始想像自己未来的婚礼，质疑自己的人缘，我的婚礼。。。。谁来？
把礼帖送到“朋友”手上，我对得起他们吗？
邀请他们来分享我的喜悦。。。我是真心想得到这么多人的祝福吗？他们真心和由衷的祝福我们？
好像没那么多人吧
款待亲戚。。。好像一年里大概就是新年时会见到

其实一切还很遥远，而且还有不会实现的可能
近年来不结婚的念头时不时搜过，甚至连有个固定的伴侣也觉得可怕
暧昧和爱理不理才是我的强项和喜好
当然，这还得撇开自己的能力不谈
这是一种病，称感情洁癖强迫症